I’m a very spontaneous person. One day I will be completely determined to do something on the spur of the moment and the next day the determination would just die down. Persistence and I just don’t go together.
Today however is one of those days when I really really want to shed weight. Reason for this sudden motivation: on the weekend I tried my pre-pregnancy jeans on and they fit me. However the full length mirror in my wardrobe gave me too good a picture of the condition of my legs. They looked humongous- I kid you not. I can probably win a competition with an elephant for flabbier legs. Even my husband who is usually very nice about it told me I should probably wear another pair of jeans. These don’t look that nice. (He was trying to be subtle).
That brings me to today. I’m thinking of documenting my days and the level of physical activity and the kind of food I’m consuming. Who knows, if I persist, I can be the person with the before and after picture rotating on social media a month (too optimistic?) from now! Ha! Also it gives me motivation to write everyday since otherwise I don’t often know what to write about. Win-win situation, ya?
Let’s see how long I can manage to do this.
Day 1- Monday, January 23rd 2017
Current weight checked after pooping 💩💩: 76.5 kgs
I started out planning the day with a list which included chores revolving about the baby, oiling my hair (because they really need some loving), cooking, cleaning and bathing. Pretty mundane stuff with the addition of working out.
Its 1.18 a.m. So far I have completed the breakfast related work, made the bed and did some cleaning. I put on the Leslie Sansone 15 minute video as a tester for the first day. It was a one mile walk. I barely made it to 9 minutes and a few seconds and the baby decided he has been ignored for too long and started throwing a tantrum. Defeated, I picked him up, cuddled him and offered a banana. He then wanted milk. Now abandoning all plans of working out for an hour I am feeding him and waiting for him to fall asleep. Let’s see what all I accomplish when he’s asleep.
Being the genius that I am, I have realized I can go down on all fours to mop the floor. This will kind of be like squatting mixed with crunches and can serve two purposes. Cleaning and exercising. Killing two birds with one stone!!😎
To be continued…
It’s funny how you can write something with complete conviction at one point in your life and read it years later to be completely surprised that it was you who wrote those things.
I have been following all these amazing women on social media who are very close to my age. They are breaking stereotypes, emerging as empowered entrepreneurs and corporate workers. I can’t help but be a little envious. My life these days revolves around managing mundane domestic chores and maintaining sanity with a devious little human following me 24/7.
Just last week I had my niece visiting me from Karachi and she asked me, appearing genuinely baffled, ‘What do you all day?’ and somehow telling her my day starts and ends with house chores and baby related work did not seem to be an interesting enough reply. My sister-in-law noticed my discomfort and distracted her daughter but this feeling of inadequacy has been a constant internal battle. I am in no way undermining all that SAHMs do but I somehow do not derive satisfaction from it anymore. I crave for something productive to do with my time- something that would bring to use my skill set and make me feel useful.
All of this brings me to this blog. I had created it last year and planned to document all the interesting experiences of my life through it. Little did I know that I would be welcoming a beautiful little human in this world so soon after who would occupy all my nights and days. With the tornado of vomits and soiled diapers followed with hours spent researching about healthy food recipes and educational toys, it has been a tough but extremely rewarding journey.
However, today, as I was questioning my self-worth and purpose of life, (I tend to go into such philosophical mode a couple of times a year) I suddenly got the idea of starting a blog. Funny thing this WordPress is. As I was filling the form I was informed that my email ID was already in use and BAM, I realized I already own a blog. After logging in, I read the only post that had been published and it left me wanting more. Thankfully I had a whole folder of unpublished articles in my laptop which I ended up reading. How different was life just two years ago! I was worrying about completely different things, had completely different priorities, (FIFA, really? I don’t even like football), and yet it all seemed so similar.
The one thing those posts from two years ago taught me was that I liked reading the thoughts of the younger me and therefore I will start actively blogging from now on because ten years down the road, I would like to know how far I have come.
I now know my new year’s resolution: Write, write and write some more.